The dawning of the new era

I can remember the day that was the start of it! I'd been to my GP feeling "horrible" and because, I'd had one or two run-ins with people which were, now I look back on it, very embarrassing! Random verbal attacks on unsuspecting shop workers because you think your being followed by the store detective are nearly always a bad idea and I cringe when I think how I shouted at the poor woman on the till! She however stayed very calm (makes it worse I feel!), I think she thought I was a secret shopper, I most definately wasn't a happy shopper! I have seen her since and I always want to stop and say I'm sorry, I always try to catch her eye but she looks through me, oblivious, probably sorting her own demons out! The day I gave her a verbal seeing too, I also sorted a few issues out with one of the doctors at work, misreading his attempts to help me out with something I 'let him have it' and 47 years of pent up aggression was fired at him including some serious standing up for the rights of all nurses and women all over the world and throughout history.............I can still see his face now! So as you can imagin when I sat in front of my GP and said that "I just feel horrrible!!", it didn't really cover it! She said "Oh dear, perhaps we'll check your FSH" and with that I was ushered in to see the nurse who not being very skilled at the old blood letting, came seriously close to getting the third verbal lashing of the day!

Menopause

Calling all menopausal women out there, especially the one's that really feel as if they are drowning, do you feel like talking about it, shouting about it, lying down on the floor and having a bloody good tantrum about it!?

I'm 47 years old and menopausal and I'm really fed up with there being nothing sensible out there for me to draw on and to help me make sense of this very significant time of my life.

I feel physically bloody awful most days and mentally swing from being at times, extremely out going and opinionated, verging on the hysterical, where I could take on the world and it's husband and heaven help anyone who gets in my way in the M & S aisle, to introverted and sullen and pointless my brain completely void of thought with bouts of sobbing in between.

Everyone is wrong, I am right, then somehow eveyone is right and I most certainly am wrong!

I don't want to embrace it and I don't want my boobs to get any more matronly than they already are!

What I object to more than anything is the lack of any kind of respect from the medical profession about the menopause and I think it's about time there was a massive world wide uprising of menopausal women! ........................well at least a local support group!